Whoever tells you it gets easier lies

So I've got a good bit of training under my belt now, and only 5 weeks left until my first marathon! (S**T)

I've done a hefty bit of mileage (Up and Running will tell you exactly how I've literally run my trainers into the ground), averaging out about 40 miles a week. With 3 long runs down; two 18.5 milers in 2 hours 45 minutes and one 20 miler in 3 hours, I've got one question....

When the hell does it get easier??????

Don't get me wrong, I love running. In fact I love the long distances more than the short ones as I have an excuse to go at slower pace and say there is some theory behind it (besides the fact that I can't be bothered to run any faster). But the problem lies with the fact that they don't seem to be getting any easier. There are so many books, and training guides out there like the one above, and I've come to one simple conclusion and review for them all...
....they lie.

Mind over Matter

I know, having completed 3 longer runs, that have been the furthest I've ever run, that I'm physically capable of completing these long runs. However its a mind game baby. When you're out on a run of such distances, it can get a bit lonely and you often feel like your runs resemble something like this rather than the pretty pictures of people sprinting though beautiful fields with glorious weather....

I may not cross the finish line looking like this...

More maybe like this poor chap....

But I will definitely do it (she says). Despite the fact that its mentally the most challenging thing I've ever pushed myself to do, I'm competitive as hell. Not competitive as in I love a good team game, I'm competitive with myself. If I tell myself I will do something, I have to finish it no matter what.

Despite all this I'm still hoping that it might get easier (even just a teeny bit).